Stage 5 Core Dump
Odds and Ends, I think that sums up some of wot this is going to be about, as I'm going to pretty much do as the title suggests and dumping my core. So don't expect any really commonality of topics, but then again when is that anything new eh? So yes dear readers, fans, friends, enemies and all you others who for some inexpiable reason read the shit that comes out of my head at times, off we go on another delving into the brain of the Anjellic one.
Where to begin, where to begin, I suppose we'll start with the area that's become in some ways a central aspect of my life or at least online life as of late. Funny how these things work I suppose, but anyways I'm wandering , here we go. Project Top Secret, holy shit, I must say I jumped into this one with both feet and more or less went up to the hair line with it. Not might you that I'm complaining, it's been a helluva ride thus far and it's likely to continue one for quite some time. Anywho. My activity as far as the tasks and wot not goes has I'm sure noticeably cooled. Mind you it's not due to lack of interest of some such nonsense, though yes Rus we went over this when you thought I'd buggered off. I simply don't have anything to add presently to the current stream of things. When thing move into an area I don't have either experience in or any real coherent thoughts to post I'm simply not going to. I'm not going to go babbling into those discussions blindly. When I know I don't have something significant to add, I'm not going to waste forum space doing nothing. When things once again move into areas I can contribute to, excel in, show off in and so on, then expect me to do just that like I did before.
Moderation there has been more often then otherwise a pretty simple matter, there's been moments, but that's normal of any online community and it's something i take some measure in pride in. Though haha I must touch on something, which isn't really related to TS operations, contributions or the like, but something of well great astonishment to me, even though it's not monumental. But seeing one's name mentioned by Dave in interviews early on, on the MMO sites and wot not, was a rather bizarre moment, granted it's just a simple mention about being brought in to mod, but at the same time, was passing strange to me lol. Not that I'm complaining of course, but still lol was quite a "WTF" moment when i first saw it on the interview article on MMORPG.Com and the other subsequent interviews and so forth that followed. I couldn't help but laugh at the irony of it all. But hey it's an honour to be noted even in a propaganda type situation (As everyone knows, I'm all about the propagandizing).
Anywho, with the advisory board fun, which seems to be in my mind working rather well, well, well enough as any new aparatus can with the usual birth troubles and so on, while I haven't been vocal in it to a large degree, mainly because my fellow AB members have been pretty thorough thus far or as Tandy and I more or less noted from the get go, they've been repeating and saying this we've been pointing out for a while so I observe and will add wot and when i can , till once more we come to things I have more direct coherent thoughts on. Anyways, all in all P:TS is likely to be something I'll be involved in till it's completion or elimination lol. Who knows maybe I'll even score a job out of it of some sort, though haha, I'm not going to set my life on it, cause well I'm just like that.
Moving on.
So my network of contacts grows and grows, TS has something to do that of course, but also just my mad ninja networking skills lol, I have to laugh when i remember wot flamingbeard said a couple months ago about myself and the guild being more like an Internet gaming syndicate lol, yeah i really think between me and some of my posse we're online gaming gangsters lol we know people, we meet people, corrupt them , make contacts out of them and have such a vast reach across the board it's amusing when things come up. As everyone knows my rather bizarre and probably annoying ability to know things either I'm not supposed to, or that they thought I wouldn't find out before they tell me. I take great pleasure in my information network, always have. But more then that i just love networking and making contacts through out the world and the various communities, and attached to this is making connections for friends and contacts. Your welcome guys by the way, I just thought I'd say it again, remember me when i need something though lol.
Next!
Alright now for something more serious, something I've gone round the twist about several times back and forth, each time I get closer to it, then back off and nothing gets said more about it. My writing, you know my exposure almost daily to Rus is having a large impact on me I think. Though to be honest, having Tandy around is probably of equal value, sorrie Mr. Demaria, but while I really like having a professional writer on the daily discourse part of the dark list having a top notch editor on tap really makes my day lol. Anyways, i digress, So what about my writing, well other then here and there random spurts it's more or less none existent. Now contributing factors, well a large chuck of my creative spark died out a couple years ago, and no Allison, I'm not blaming you , just how things worked out. That and with Oracle's virtual death, it left me without a writing home, sure I know there's plenty of sites and yes Donna, i know, i know, don't start i know lol. I haven't been ready to make a big return to the online rp community, i felt like a refugee no matter where I popped into, i haven't been ready to set up shop anywhere new. That mood however is changing so i might just start going along. Between Epiphany and many others riding me pretty hard about getting back into writing, I know I need to stop being a lazy git and start doing it. And yes Adonai, you've beaten that into my head too many times as well, so right fuck you very much I'm starting to listen and I've even got the spark to write some today even lol we'll see if i can muster up the energy, but times come, with my birthday on the horizon once again, I know I'm not that old, but time doesn't wait for anyone so if I'm gonna do it, i need to piss or get off the pot and start writing like I know i want to. It's something I can do, I've given up to many other of my potential "talents" as I've been told so letting this one go i think is just criminal of me.
But then I'm a sinner, always have been, always will be, I'm going to hell with a first class ticket, but giving up my ability to write i think is a sin even I'm not willing to commit. So here we go, ya'll have won the war, i surrender and will start writing again. So keep your eyes open as I plan to start off with some short posts, old chars and maybe new ones, to find the groove again, so don't expect miracles right off, or Anjel standard uber sized posts and shit, or even regular rp, but who knows, i know I owe too many people rp lol, Form a line damnit , form a line, and yes i remember who some of those people are, Donna, Shelly, Jennifer, Chris, AJ, probably Katy, Kelly, probably I even owe promises to Rob and Cin lol, fucked if I remember all the people, and yes Jamie I know lol, I owe you too broham or you owe me, I dunno which lol.
Now then.
What else? job searching continues, stress problems, well I've been stressed some lately, and my hearts acted up a bit, I'll be honest about that, though it's not serious and I've kept in touch with my doctor about it, so no panic attacks alright, I'm not due for an eminent heart attack or anything and the air bubbles aren't back, just some strain I think, and I think that largely has to do with the fact i haven't been engaging in my normal stress relief activities much lately, But I just addressed that about writing. I think some of this stress is self imposed because I'm full to bursting with storylines and have been keeping them and my writing bottled up. along with being a fussy bitch about playing video games with so many starts and stops of my collection of games and not actively playing things. Some personal stuff sure, but nothing that needs to be aired in public, I'll keep that between the parties involved, though I really could launch my mother into outer space sometimes.
Anyways i think I've wore myself out for the moment, my arms a bit achy today, probably slept funny or something so I'm gonna wrap up this dump for now and maybe write another one later on. Now I'm posting this on all my blogs since it covers so much different shit, and I'm well aware that many of you dear readers have no two sweet clues who many of the people I've referred to are, and that's alright, cause well that's wot happens when you spend your time networking and talking to the world as I do, but for sake of saving myself time I put it all in here. now then i bid you all a good day/night/wotever. Enjoy.
~Anjel